By Sadhogopal Ram
I feel a sense
of satisfaction when a loser somehow wins something. I don’t know why it is so,
and since when it has been so, but it just makes perfect sense that in the
world full of bullies everywhere, somehow, somewhere a loser gets a chance at
life, at going home not with lost pride but with a smile, at luck, at the bully,
at the world in getting at least one thing out of all those things that he had
wanted all his life, but was denied at the hands of the very world full of
bullies.
I don’t know
what I’m – a bully or a loser. Not because I’m confused (which I’m in way), but
because at different points in my life I’ve been both. But somehow I identify
myself with the loser in me more. Maybe I’ve got a low self-esteem, or maybe I’m
just tired pretending to be something I’m not.
There is no
particular purpose for writing this little post. It’s just that I haven’t been
writing off lately, not at all. But in past few days I’ve been feeling this
sense of satisfaction when a loser somehow wins something, although I haven’t
won anything per se. I am just feeling, so here I’m… penning… what I’ve been
feeling.
And here’s
something my girlfriend sent me over email today ;) … oh, how I miss her.
<3 <3 <3 Well, I think I am closest to you (I certainly think know you the most), and I know you're not a loser, period. As for a bully...welllll...that can be a good thing, you know :) But no, you're not a bully either. You're just awesome. :*
ReplyDelete..and you, my dearest, are, as always, too kind on me. But I love you.
Deletehuman beings are strange creatures, and so are their affiliations with feelings. No wonder why its always exhilarating to see a loser climb that podium of achievement. The same pair of eyes that had taunted the underdog bear the glint of an awe.
ReplyDeleteAnd bullies they are mere hindrances that one must overcome. Perhaps, life without bullies (both physical and circumstantial) shall be boring and lame.
And my friend as far as you're concerned, You're a champ. Perhaps you may not have enough trophies to show, but that doesn't snatch from you the right to be called a champ. :)
Oh, man. You're being too generous in your praise for me. I don't consider myself a champ. But thank you for your support, Mrinal.
DeleteAre you single? Please say you are...I'd like to give you my phone number. I cannot stop thinking about you.
ReplyDeleteSorry, I'm booked and taken. Completely.
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